one of my new favorite words: charming :]
Here’s a little update
I’ve been reading a lot of Thought Catalog and having my own little drafts in my head. And since I have the time now, maybe I should.
The suckiest thing about this? I have nothing to write about.
What is it about Love?
What is it about being in the 20s?
Fucking hell, I have no interest in politics.(I have enough politics between my head and heart)
What is it about Hopes? And Dreams?
What is it about Hey eh, get in line and settle down?
I am pretty upset about not going back to studying as soon as I hope. I guess it is just me being me that once I have something I put my mind on to, I don’t think of the consequences. (and I thought I’ve learn from the unplanned pregnancy) It’s not the consequences, rather the planning of it all. Give me hell, and I bet I’ll go through it. Of course, a bit whining, crying and what-nots but I take it when it comes right at me.
As for anything fancy and foolish, love and lust and anything in between…
If it was a weather, I’m in a haze. Yesterday and the day before, I was in a tornado of angst, God only knows why. Before that it was rainbows and sunshine. Unpredictable, that’s why I chase after you.
As for little girl, I am ashamed that I have been caught up with myself. But as I hold her hands to bring her to school, kiss her goodbye and ask for a high-five and just to hear her laughter, makes my day. Coming back home, tired and feeling fucked up, seeing MY little girl running up to the door and jumping up to me with a hug, it’s all worth it. Having her every where and no where at times, panicking like mad when my parents and I clash and almost giving up. So many a times wanting to give up. But as I see her soft face asleep, you, baby girl, you make me stronger.
Oh those little kisses you plant.
The way you hold me.
The way how I fit into your arms.
How warm & safe i feel.
Oh if only I can hold you, kiss you all day long.
For your own safety
Hazardous - the smile, the texts
Read labels / signage - body language : hugs, little pecks
Proper protection : Optimism.
Preventing injuries - health : heart ache
I snorted and weep a bit.
Yeah I want marriage. No. Creepy.
Yeah its me not you.. Wait. It’s definitely you..
Kiss me. Fuck off.